“What do you want to be when you grow up?”

It’s the question you are asked time and time again through out your primary school years. I’ve even asked this question of my mom who is already a grown up.  And there’s multiple ways to go about answering this question. You can answer with teacher, doctor, fire fighter but perhaps that is too juvenile. You’ll grow up with this question so your answer grows with you.

I pulled out an old kindergarten project and on it read “When I grow up I want to be a Vet” Throughout the years I have realized that growing up my visions have changed. My goals changed. My future morphed so many times I wonder how many different possible universes could exist for my self being alone. (I believe that with every option there is a split in the universe and then that universe exists in its own parallel)

As I’ve grown older and experienced new things, I’ve realized that I kept changing but my insight on what I want out of life hasn’t changed. And sure, I knew from a young age I was going to go to college, sure I knew that I was going to do something besides lounge around all day. But  When I grow up I want to be happy. I want to help people, and I want to make them smile. I want to make them smile at a young age because I know what it’s like to be sad. I know what it’s like when you get picked on, or bullied, or singled out. I realize now that those experiences make you stronger and I want to help people realize that being different means you’re special in a good way, and not special because you’re weirdly different but you’re greatly different. I’ve had my fair number of setbacks and Honestly, those drawbacks really suck. They make you feel like crap, and that you should give up. I learned that at that time is when you need to push even harder. Do even more. The world doesn’t care that you’re having a setback, in fact they probably don’t know you’re having a setback. (Colleges don’t count taking a semester out of high school for chemotherapy treatment an extra cirrcular activity; They don’t that you even got sick, they care about how you react to that situation in life and if you’re going to percerve through it.) The world doesn’t care, but the people around you do. You care. And thats enough to get back on your feet and keep going. To keep growing. The people who aren’t growing are the ones trying to knock you down, are the ones who can’t care about themselves enough so they pick it off other people.

People the possiblities are endless and you need to realize that for yourself, I know I did and it has made growing up so much easier.

When I grow up,

I want to be a kid again. I want to be a kid because kids love blindly, and try things without second guessing. They help and see the good in everybody and everything even if those people or those things aren’t great.

When I grow up,

I want to be happy.

When I grow up,

I want to be proud of what I accomplished no matter what I chose to do.

When I grow up,

I want to keep growing, keep expanding my mind and soul.

When I grow up, I will never be grown.